My heart want many things.... My deepest longings.... My earnest yearnings.... My darkest desire... I never had the chance to feel the love of a dad or a brother... I would give anything in the world to have one happy moment with dad. How many hours every day I used to dream of going on a holiday, short trip, shopping, eating with dad. But those moments will forever be a dream unfulfilled... Some of you might thing this is childish coming from a 41 years old spinster. But I had to write it down here to let my heart release a little bit of stress of longings, of desires, of dreams that will never come true. I sometimes wish fairy tales should never have been told to us in our childhood... that hope that someday our loved ones would come back to us should never have been taught... I feel awkward expressing my feelings even to my mother or sister.... I wanted to be spontaneous and happy from deep within, let go of my childhood longings but it wouldn't go away. I long for a man to gen
